These are probably the most frequent questions a traveling performer like me gets to hear. For most of us the answer is pretty straight forward. For me, it is really not that simple.
I grew up in a small town in Germany as a failed gymnast. Being at the bottom of the food chain was not always easy and moving to Montreal at the age of 15 felt like breaking out of prison. I lived and studied in Montreal for a total of 5 years. I loved every day of it, made deep, lasting connections with many people and got strongly attached to particular places in town.
Ones graduating from circus school my dream – just like everybody else’s – was to travel and work as much as humanly possible. At this time I was sure Montreal will be my home for ever. In the past 6 years I have only been back twice for a total of less than a month. Not once have I been back to my old gym or home town in Germany.
The past 6 years I have been living the dream, traveling from show to show. Visiting and performing in every corner of the world and getting to learn and share my art with so many individuals and the most astonishing audiences. But being basically homeless takes its toll. Constantly living out of two suitcases is not easy. Whenever I buy a new jacket or a new pair of shoes something else has to go because every time you get on a plane you need to make strict weight just like before a UFC fight.
These past 3 years I have been fortunate enough to make the deepest human connection possible. I’ve met my soulmate and started creating a new home in Kiev, Ukraine. I absolutely love this town and the people there but not speaking their language at all makes it hard to fit in. I’m fluent in 3 languages and not used to not being able to fit in conversations without stopping the flow of them or standing out because of lack of vocabulary.
So if today someone asks me where I am from I honestly am not really able to answer this question – and I think that is ok. It is not as much about where you are from but about your daily cultural decisions of how you choose to live your life and what person you choose to be every day.
Where am I at home is at this point a similarly difficult question. At this point any place turns into a home when my wife and pup are with me and where we are happy, safe and healthy.
Where do I go when the shows here are over? Kiev! The place that one day soon I will confidently be able to call my home.
What about you guys? Where are your from, where is your current base and what is the place or human you would call home?
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